Cause I Failed

Yes Yes,
I'm always a failure ):

I was actually eating dinner just now
My dad say : Janice, teacher said you failed your Diploma exam, so do you want to retake?
I was like : .....
I din't answer him back , not even a word

I WAS STUNNIED
seriously, how the hell I take this?
DIPLOMA okay!
not a small exam
This exam actually cost RM5000 ):
and I failed it, WTF are you doing sze yuen!?

WHAT THE FARK!?

So what do you expect me to do now?

YES! commit suicide, is that the best choise?

NO! I won't be stupid enough to Jump 

idk why, but I just won't.. 

so  what should I do now?

 Should I give up or retake the exam?

I need suggestions badly! serious!!!

Tel me WHAT THE HELL TO DO?!

yes, the first person that I want to thank is Hung Hung (:

He asked me not to give up and cheer me up when I'm down

Leroy too (: I appreciate it alot alot (:

Thanks guys <3

Hmm.. I guess I'll retake the exam?

Cause Hung force me to (: hahaha

we had a pinky promise, Don't ask me what's pinky promise

I seriously have no idea what's that

It was keng hung's idea (: thanks for cheering hung (:

LOVE YA ;)

I feel much more better <3

I've been thinking, why I failed this exam

This is such an important exam in my entire life?

I'm very depressed

The first reason that actually came up to my mind is:

I still remember he hurts me so badly and one week after was actually my exam

and I WAS SICK

like really really sick ):

Why do you want to hurt me before my piano exam dear?

):

U can actually hurt me after my piano exam you know?

But I never blame you dear,

it was all my fault

My fault for loving you too much

My fault for caring everything about you too much

My fault for never noticed that you din't even wants me

My fault for keep on waiting for a year or even more than that

and

My fault for missing and thinking of you too much

Yes, I ADMIT

its all my fault 

and this is why I called myself a failure

Yes Wesley, this is my revenge 

GET ME?

this is my REVENGE

sorry for hurting you and rejected you,

Im SORRY OKAY!!
I don't mean it ):

but we stil can be friends right?

and why must you delete me in your facebook twice?

do you really hate me that much?

 U said that you'll talk to me when I'm mature enough
AND why you said I'm immature ,
how would you know?

I know,even my best friend scolded me for not accepting you

Yes, 
It was my lost ,
I'm sorry,REALLY sorry!

Idk whether you'll see this

But.. thanks for everything

Thanks for you loving and caring

You're the first guy who actually will do that to me you know?

You knew that I loved someone else 

So you hurt me and tel me you're a playboy

But It's actually not right??

U just want me to forget everything bout you

But I know it's not real, and you're not a playboy(:
Joe told me everything and I actually cried for that
even you stil hates me, I'm sorry and hope ya'll forgive me
I'll never forget a HOT GUY like you
I mean CUTE GUY (:
seriously, all of us think that you're super duper cute! 
miss you alot!

I think you're in singapore now?

Hope you'll enjoy your new life new friends right there

I'll always take you as my best friend even though you don't give a SHIT !

Cause it was all my fault