Tears that I hold back

*White Flags*
Yes, you get the sign?
Actually, for this time is not a good time to blog but meh
I'll just write out how do I feel right now
Feelings right now is?

• Jealousy
• Angry
•  Sad      
• Emotional

Yes you know me...
this four always sticks to me
Because for you ,Christians will know how many thing you gotta face, how many things you gotta fight for
We need to learn how to forgive ourselves
For you, yes YOU
if you said you've been crying for one whole day, I'd say I've cried for a thousand years
It might be hard for me
But so what?
Its just a testimony
Why do I feel so angry?sad? emotional?jealousy?
What's so good about it?
Nothing!

You'll never know how badly I want to shift school, how badly I want to change myself,
How badly I want to forget and how badly just to hold my tears back
Just so you know,
Its hard to..

It's time to put down and put it through
You know ,
Things will never change
No natter how many times you tried to say 
So I give up and not giving anymore

SO here I am.
Depending on myself
JANICE ONG SZE YUEN
To have a fresh start & lean not by own saying
God will always be there so
Smile ;D


xx